Adam,
Are you serious? You have some work to do bud. You have no guts. Do you play music, or sports, or anything in where you use your intuition for anything else? Anything that might build your confidence in them?
I’m not sure you have a question Adam, just your favorite blanky, keep you comfy while in your unconscious bliss. You’re going to equate instinct and intuition with rape and suicide? Buddy…get a life!
siva