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[B]Q)[/B] Shiva - I decided to do puja to Shiva by offering little fruits and seeds one by one. I started to feel like my heart became made of metal and that atoms in my body started to move at enourmous speed. Anyway it was a non-pleasant experience, that led to nowhere.
[B]A)[/B] Puja to the Lord in the form of Sada Shiva is extremely beneficial. You were actually receiving a deep cleansing and the beginning stages of heart transformation into a more spiritualized heart. That can sometimes scare the individual. My suggestion is that you once again take-up doing pujas for Lord Shiva but you need to shift your purpose to Union with God instead of becoming powerful or being filled with Prana. When you have the wrong desire in mind while doing puja, the wrong results will come about. You must come out of the egoic need for empowerment, and enter the God-Self’s Unconditional Love Conscious and Awareness - there is nothing more beautiful or transforming than that.
[B]Q)[/B] Krishna - doing puja to this archetype caused change in my state of mind. I kind of turned me into a hyper-peaceful person, which was not always the most useful state to be in public.
[B]A)[/B] The same is true for the Lord in the Form of Krishna. Your problem is that you are trying this and that and quitting after a period of time. I will tell you the same thing that the Hindu Saints always say - “Don’t dig hundreds of shallow holes searching for treasure. Locate a spot where it has been found before, and keep digging.”
[B]Q)[/B] after this dream a picture of Kriya Babaji appeared “on the screen” for quite a while, like if he was the author of the movie and I woke up. It was his painted picture. This dream was extremely vivid and felt very different that other dreams.
[B]A)[/B] Whenever you see a Great Saint such as Ammachi or Kriya Babaji in a dream or a vision, know that you have been blessed. That they are coming to you in either answer to a prayer or you are receiving assistance from the subtle plane from that particular Being. It is a great Boon (positive Omen) and not every person will have such a wonderful experience in their life.
[B]Q)[/B] I heard stories, that when a disciple comes to study with Kriya Babaji, Babaji tells to take a death test and jump off the cliff. And only those who do it are being revived by Kriya Babaji and accepted as disciples. Is Kriya Babaji still in a physical form? I want to visit him.
[B]A)[/B] This is a story of a disciple was in physical form and Kriya Babaji could not take him with the group. He told the disciple that he cannot accept him in his current condition, so the disciple jumped off of the mountain and his body was retrieved by one of the 18 Siddhas. Kriya Babaji revived him into the Subtle life. Then he was able to teleport along with the rest of the group and Kriya Babaji.
This reply was time consuming and it would be better if your future questions would be asked in smaller doses, but I enjoyed responding to the best of my ability.