Something…. different…is happened… but I doubt I can put it into words, but I will try and see where it gets me… possibly committed on grounds of insanity :)… I have been following the Yoga DVDs I purchased and I have been enjoying them but I have been back and forth between thinking I want to start Yoga again and thinking I have enough to do already once my knee allows that has more to do with my martial arts training. And I truly do want to get back to my martial arts training. However I had a bit of a realization this past weekend that was triggered by an unusual source…. I was watching Kung Fu Panda with the kids and for some reason when the character of Oogway said
Quit, don’t quit? Noodles, don’t noodles? You are too concerned about what was and what will be. There is a saying: yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the “present.”
I started thinking about Yoga and martial arts training and then later when the same character said
My friend, the panda will never fulfill his destiny, nor you yours until you let go of the illusion of control.
I realized I do not so much want to train yoga as much as I need to train yoga at this stage of my life, there is something there that is deeper that I need to explore. However I am still not sure how I will fit that in exactly and I do realize I am getting philosophical advice from a cartoon (which is a bit disturbing) but I am not going to worry about it anymore. I also realized that a martial arts school a friend of mine talked me into going to look at is not really for me… I can and will start training it (Since I told him I would) to get me moving again but I am moving soon and it will be impossible to get there so I am not going to worry about that anymore either… I’m just going to enjoy the journey
If and when the time is right I will start training Yoga with a formal teacher… but I’m not going to worry about it anymore either or get into the debate with myself that it has been producing…. And that too could get me committed