dwai
May i ask you to share the process of transformation you underwent that led to your becoming comfortable with the advaita perspective?[/QUOTE]
mainly I would say sitting at the feet , over the last six years of a great teacher who shines in the non dual , through example . He shares a cocktail of hatha yoga , tantra , and advaita . But also through 25 years of sitting practises , mostly struggling , the company of some wise beings , studying the dharma , having some understanding of therevadin , mahayana , vajrayana Buddhadharma, 20 years of hatha yoga , letting go of lots of things ., especially a fixed or rigid idea of my identity , although parodoxically this has perhaps uncovered some truth about the nature of a me , being on many retreats and experiencing new states of conciousness , a feeling of coming home , a taste of something , a thirst , delighting in reading of Ramakrishna , nisargadatta , ramana maharshi , and my new man adyashanti My first real taste of the dharma was reading Chogyam Trungpa rimpoche all those years ago.
Ive always been drawn to these teachings but they always ending up giving me a headache through my intellectualising , conceptualising , I rarely get that brain squeeze anymore.
It is hard to put the words to say how I came to be able to listen to advaita without advaita being slightly irritating and feeling it may be life denying but I feel i may have arrived in a place where it now is so right to hear it and indeed i find it so life affirming , coming to an understanding of what it might be showing me , so a lot of effort to start letting go of the effort and dropping the need to control , plan or strategise to any great degree , to let the play unfold , because it always does .
jai ma