I just wanted to thank you all for your comments and apologize if i seem negative alot, I wanted to give a little more on my background if I may… some of this may re-cap a little bit.
I grew up sitting in front of my computer for 12 years, and during this time I gained alot of weight, I reached 260. During all this, I had a rather negative lifestyle as well, I am not sure if someone of you are aware of the current scenes with teenagers or anything but, I had black hair down to my shoulders, wore make up, and had similar friends who just so happened to be just as negative as me… At one point I found out that my hair was thinning and I freaked out so bad, leading to suicidal thoughts and everything that I realized I was focused on the wrong things in life…
I cut my hair, started working out, started hanging out with different people, people who were more confident and positive. I don’t feel bad for abandoning my old lifestyle and friends, it all just dragged me down… further down the line, I had to attack my weight problem. More importantly my health problem concerning my weight. I decided to do the “master cleanse” detox. Right before I started this, I got very sick and was bed ridden for a week. I also started physical therapy right before I got bed ridden. About the same time I got sick I also had my first adjustment in physical therapy… for my foot. It was at this time my back pain appeared.
For the record I had had occassional back pain in the lower right by my SI joint every now and then for years, and had been seeing a chiropractor for years. Also a little more background, a couple months before starting physical therapy and getting sick but after twisting my foot, I tried to lift the backend of a truck with some friends, we succeeded, but in the process I felt a pop in my lower right back, and had some pretty bad pain for a few days.
It seems like the pain is more frequent when Im doing my physical therapy exercises… ranging from the Iiliac crest, to the sides right next to it, and into my lower back and buttox. Now finally going down into my lower leg right leg, on the right. Sometimes in the pain on my hips is on both sides.
Ive been to an osteopath who said that my pain was not sciatica, he scheduled some X-rays and an MRI of the lumbar/spine and all was normal with some early signs of arthritis. He put my through some motions but nothing really hurt during, its just a constant pain. so he didnt know what it was, my physical therapist wants me to go to a different physical therapis due to no improvements with my back or foot.
The truck driving thing hasnt started yet, but Im starting up a hauling business.
The other things I mentioned, are things im not currently doing due to pain, but I would like to get into.
Really, my negativity comes from me not being able to find out whats causing this, and it all starting when I decided to become an active person… Most of my dreams revolve around me and going out and doing the living I didnt do when I was younger. Ive done alot of reading on back pain through forums and other places, and it just seems many do not heal, and they have to avoid almost every activity I want to do. I’m not gonna lie, even sitting on the toilet right now hurts a great deal. Im 23, im too young to give up my dreams or my life yet.
The place im going to yoga for, in west michigan, has a certified Iyengar teacher… In fact she just got done living with the Iyengar family in India, so I am fairly confident in her ability.
As for my name, irhxcbcziuzxs, this was derived from my old life style
ir - i are
hxc - hardcore
bcz - because
iuz - i use
xs - x’s
It’s really a mock on hardcore kids, and It my AIM screen name, or my old aim screen name and ive moved on to a new one, but Its the moniker i use most of the time elsewhere.
edit: I have a fairly extensive spiritual background that I dont feel like typing up right now.