[QUOTE=Hubert;9639]
I have been fighting with myself all along.
Why is that the better I want to be, I am ending up worse ?
I do not believe in social order.
I do not believe in marriage.
I do not believe in children being the meaning of life.
I do not believe in health.
I do not believe in wealth, either.
I do not believe in romantic love, and whoever said that the greatest thing you’ll ever learn, is to love and to be loved in return … well, he was direly mistaken, if that’s about two human beings.
I believe only in the Self, that it is atemporal, unchanging, free and blissful, and I like to call That God, as it makes me feel that it is higher than me, this limited ego. I do not experience That, I do not know that Self, but I will not stop until I do.
This is my vow I take now in front of you all.[/QUOTE]
hubert, I like you very much and you have produced many words of wisdom. I type this response with two sides of myself, my ego to show how much I have learned and my heart because I have compassion for you and myself. These words I am going to type are words I will own since I have written them. By typing to you I will be putting my thoughts deeper inside myself so I say thank you for that.
Maybe you are the one with the illusion
You do not believe in sociol order? Good thing the eearth dont think that way cause one day it might stop rotating and then one side of the earth will freeze and kill all of us
you do not believe in marriage? Good thing the moon dont think that way cause if the moon left the earths side for good who knows what kind of global impact that would have
You do not believe in children being the meaning of life. Good for you and your children. This way they are not responsible for your enjoyment of life. This way they can relax and find their enjoyment for themselves rather then worry about pleasing you
Health? better hope the sun stays healthy otherwise we may slip into an ice age tomorrow
wealth? a place to sleep, enought food and water, the rest is window dressing
Love, Jesus siad you can do all the works in the world and have not love and it profits you nothing, something to that extent. To Love and be loved. This true self you are seeking supposedly is just that. The true self loves itself and therefore feels love from itself in return. Exactly what you are seeking is it not? Maybe right now you are mistaken. Once you find the love within everything will be romantic will it not?
Here is your illusion hubert, you believe in the concepts that you speak of but it is the way things are described that you do not believe in. You believe for some reason you have more value then the sun and the moon. They dance in harmony, why cant you dance in harmony with your wife? Is it now time to appologize to her?
I eat very well not because of a rule or law imposed by socioty, but because of an understanding I have for my well being. I work on meditating not because of sociol orders but because I like the peace I experience within. If you want to escape from the wordly things it will follow you wherever you go on this planet, ask pandara about how India is becoming. You fight things you think you are against, when in truth maybe you are for them much more then you realize.
Maybe I was off base, but I have a feeling/belief that I was not. If in any case I was I humble myself to you. You will not stop untill you find what you seek, well it is nice to know I have company on this journey. I believe I can find myself right where I sit. In the middle of a big city with a lot of sociol order, laws, etc… I have learned a lot from your words and I believe you may be closer then you think.
Remember to breathe my friend
with love
seeker