I am Nischay Jain, 18 yrs old.
I went through the kundalini awakening 2 years back when I was 16 years old.
It lasted for a month or two, and the after effects have turned my life upside down, not in a pleasant way at all.
The awakening ended very suddenly, for no external reason at all. All my chakras, starting with the heart chakra, went on low suddenly. It was like terrible depression without reason. It has turned my life into chaos, and I can only think of getting back to where I was(the awakened state).I spent 1 year thinking of I had done something wrong or pissed off the gods or something. ( I didn't know it was called kundalini or know about chakras). I lost all balance in life and created havoc as I had a lot of commitment with my studies.
I went into mental traps trying to figure out what went wrong and what I had to do next.
As all my chakras went on a full low, I couldn't do basic things in life properly. I was scared of going to my room without light.
I lost all my friends, everyone veear to me barely talk to me anymore.
I tried explaining what had happened to me but nobody believed. My psychiatrist thinks this is all in my head ( I can agree, but I don't know ) .
And I see in everyday life the need for all my chakras to be aligned and live an alternate reality.
I was already a very skinny kid. I lost a lot more weight, start crying if somebody shouts at me, feel like my body is disintegrating.
I have a little hearing loss all of a sudden, I have glasses now.
It's been 2 years. I can't get over it.
I can't help myself, nor do I know where to go for help.
It took a lot of effort to tell people what I went through and have them deny it for you.
I need someone to communicate with for at least a short time.
If there's any way you think you can help me, please contact me.