Dear Nichole,
Thank you for sharing your ever delightful quotes. This one especially is compelling.
It sounds like you are doing great and have a firm devotion and intention :). That’s beautiful!
About being fearless and the like:
In my experience the most powerful, uncontrived, truthful and direct way to being fully open and exposed, is through clarity…
Because we can only ‘try’ so much to be a certain way without seeing things clearly for what they are. It seems to me that it is only through true understanding and therefore clarity, through seeing things as they truly are in relation to everything else, that we can naturally be without fear completely. All trying, eventually, will fail or not reach this level of completion since clarity about what we truly are might be missing.
For example: I could try right now with my mind and heart to be open, and that would certainly work to some degree, but it is only when I see clearly that in reality there is no separate ‘me’ to protect and withdraw, that I can be fully open and fearless.
So personally I have stopped trying to be a certain way since I got tired of it and because I am impatient when it comes to result. So I was always very intense in my ‘trying to be according to spiritual qualities,’ but the ultimate result never came, or not quickly enough anyway haha. Now I just allow my fear also to be there and whatever periods of non-clarity and insecurity I might be having, I leave it be totally. Often from that again rises the freedom and clarity from the sense of ‘me’ and thus naturally, I find all spiritually described qualities to be naturally present since I am That in which they arise :).
Thanks for sharing your personal story. I wish you all the best.
Love,
B.