Dear all,
I’ve been lurking for a while, but tonight I thought I’d trouble you with a problem hoping you can provide some guidance.
Some background information: I am female, in my twenties and finishing up my studies. Said studies have caused me many physiological problems in the past two years (or I should say psychophysiological as they are stress related) since I am a complete overachiever and tend to work myself to the bone while psychologically I can become a wreck.
Last year I decided to do something about this and entered a Mindfulness course which helped me enormously, until I decided that no, I did not have the time to spend on it any more and that all my time and energy should be focused on being the best I can in my career. Naturally I had a relapse and almost had a burnout late this summer.
Enter stress management, where my coach suggested I take up yoga, which with only minor resistance (!) I took up. I practice 2-3 times a week, doing Flow and Power Yoga at a studio. Not only did I find myself falling in love with yoga, but, importantly, my physiological symptoms have abated to a GREAT extent. (symptoms: extreme tension migraines, stomach problems, intestinal problems, shoulder-neck tension and PAIN). My Mindfulness background also helped me connect with yoga immediately, fully appreciating that it allows me to focus my attention in the moment and not drift in the past or the future (as might be my case), helping to ease my stress symptoms immensely. I am saying all this to stress that the psychophysiological benefits of asana practice have been very valuable to me.
Now the problems: it seems my teachers love the poses that give me the most trouble, namely double pigeon and wheel :eek: I am very flexible with forward bend poses and very good with balancing asanas, but as you have probably guessed my hips are useless when it comes to opening them. Double pigeon is excruciating for my hips. I follow my instructor’s directions in order to not hurt the knees (top leg placed on top of the other precisely so the leg underneath is not visible - perfect triangle, ankle placed on the knee, not inside the leg, both feet flexed). Moving the spine forward to open the hips hurts A LOT and the top knee is always high up in the air. Trying to touch my hands to the floor HURTS. Since my instructor seems to always put us in this pose I decided to practice by myself at home with gentler hip openers so that maybe, with time, I might hurt less in class. To this end I have been practicing poses like the bound ankles pose and the single pigeon. However, I have found that the single pigeon hurts my bent knee. This a very slight pain, but how should I say, I feel it. I am not sure I meant to feel it. And after having lurked around this forum for a while I have really taken in the message that knees are not to be messed with. I approached my instructor with this, demonstrated how I go into the pose and how I hold it and she told me I do it fine, and was even surprised I felt something in my knee. The worst part was that she said that if I want to open my hips she thinks I should continue trying with the double pigeon because in her opinion that is the best hip opener there is… So I go back to square one because the reason I was doing the single pigeon in the first place was to try and do the double one with more ease I kind of don’t know what to do. Perhaps not bending forward at all when in double pigeon is what is right for me? However, if I do that, am I helping my hips to open at all? Or am I not progressing at all in helping my hips become freer?
My other problem is that I notice lately that my right wrist is giving me a little pain if I push it. And by pushing it I mean going into a full wheel at the end of the class. Which, believe me, I’d rather not, I much prefer finishing the sequence with Karnapidasana, which I am actually good at and does not hurt. However, my teacher prefers the wheel instead and it seems to be not really an option. I CAN come into the full wheel but if I try to do it twice (which might have caused the problem in the first place…) then I find my right wrist will not hold me any more. Problem is, today, without doing a wheel, which was when the pain had previously manifested, I tried to practice Bakasana (not fully doing it, as I absolutely cannot, just trying out the balance and strengthening as my instructor suggested) and I felt the pain again.
Now I take all the warnings you have written multiple times in this forum about listening to your body and pain very seriously, as I most definitely do not want to injure my body. I sport a lot and love being in good condition, I do not want to jeopardize my physical well-being (well, not any more than I do unconsciously with my horrible stress prone personality anyway…). What should I do? Should I continue with yoga, or is it not for me? I would really like to continue but now after having felt the pain in my wrist again today I find myself wondering if even Chaturanga (which as you can imagine features a lot in my flow and power classes) is safe for my wrist?? On the other hand, I find it really hard to give up the psychophysiological benefits yoga has brought into my life.
If you have read this far, thank you. Any advice you could give me will be greatly appreciated.
Divina