I would say this is more of a rant than a revelation.
I have also been through the stage of people-hating, they even have a term for it, misanthropy but ultimately found this viewpoint on the world depressing, alienating and arrogant, so i eventually grew out of it. I mean listen to yourself speak:
Seems to me now that People in this world are just so artificial, they are so fake.
Most people I meet have no true personality, they just respond
Accordingly to what they hear and see, tell someone they look pretty
They feel good, tell the same person they ugly, they feel bad.
Then you also say:
And it seems people always try to make themselves feel
Better about themselves, by putting others down.
Yeah, like you are doing here, putting the whole of humanity down, to feel better about yourself.
All people want to do is show off fancy clothes and talk bad about
Each other.
You are talking bad about all of humanity. So people are all about showing fancy clothes? Very simplistic. You have basically gone from one extreme to the other from craving approval and attention of people to pretending you don’t need people by creating your own world bubble. In either case, you are highly self-absorbed and it is small wonder why you don’t have friends.
Not condemning you, I know exactly what you are going thru, because I went though it as well. But I realized I was doing myself no favours: I was depressed resentful of people, lonely and missing out on sex, relationships, parties, friendships and everything. I mean deep down I always knew I only hated them because I myself had failed to engage them and was jealous of their lifestyle. In fact I wanted to be just like them - and that is what I did. I became like them. You know what they say, “If you can’t beat them, join them” Now, I have a much more compassionate and empathic attitude to people. I understand what they are going though, I understand the complexity of human emotion and desire, and how I am very much playing the same game they are. I don’t see myself as separate from my species - i mean what an arrogant and ugly attitude to have. You wouldn’t even be human if it were for others. What you would be without parenting, schooling, society? An animal.
You will grow out of it eventually.
