Dear Kola,
I want to first acknowledge what you are doing right now to manage your anxiety and depression. I think it is always best to do something (even medicate) to help move us out of our pain enough so that we can go looking for a better way. It is very difficult, if not impossible, to discern what would make a beneficial change while in a state of anxiety or depression. You are doing a great job taking care of yourself with the tools that are currently at your disposal, but it sounds like you are at a point where you can see that it could be better, and so now you’re looking for more.
I am going to include 2 links here. One is to the site of Amy Weintraub, the author of [I]Yoga for Depression: A Compassionate Guide to Relieve Suffering Through Yoga[/I] (Broadway Books, 2004) and the other is to the site of Richard Miller, the author of, [I]Yoga Nidra - The Meditative Heart of Yoga[/I]. You can buy the books at any online retailer, but their personal sites just offer more information on them and their books. These are 2 tremendous tools for anxiety and depression.
As you explore your options, I think it is essential that you stay in communication with all of your health care providers regarding your goals for yourself. Meaning, you tell them if you want to someday be off medication completely or if you would like to augment your current treatments to make it more comprehensive–whatever your personal goals are. This will help to keep you safe as you explore and try things out. I also want to say that there are people with organic conditions that benefit greatly by psychoactive drugs. Stay open to whatever you need and work with what benefits you.
What works best for immediate comfort from high-vata conditions (what we consider anxiety and depression to be in Ayurveda and Yoga therapy) is be gentle, gentle, gentle. You and your nervous system need to be soothed and treated with loving-kindness to start to heal. This can take shape in so many ways: a restorative yoga practice, avoiding movies, books and company that provoke you negatively, avoiding alcohol and caffeine, keeping good company who support you, self massage, keeping a journal, gratitude practices, baths, affirmations, long walks, whatever makes your heart sing a little louder. Be the sweetest friend to yourself.
Amy Weintraub: Yoga For Depression- How Yoga Can Change Your Life
Richard Miller: yoga nidra book and CD - Yoga Nidra: The Meditative Heart of Yoga - Richard Miller
Best wishes to you in your good work.
Namaste