I’m sitting here in this coffee shop, my back hurting, sleepy and on a number of medications I honestly just wish i didn’t have to be on. This is not where I was 5 years ago. I was introduced to yoga by a friend in 2010 and immediately fell in love with the practical and also transcendental nature of developing a practice and deepening that practice in the context of a wonderful community of people on the same path. I was practicing daily whether personally or in class. This went on for about a year and a half. One of my teachers approached me to ask if I had any interest in eventually teaching. I expressed interest and was invited to intern with her and eventually enroll in a local 200hr ryt program. I began studying under my teacher and eventually began to teach a few beginner classes, all while maintaining my personal and community practice daily. I was living and breathing yoga and I can’t remember a time before or since then when I felt better in every aspect of living. Mind, body, spirit.
Unfortunately I had a weird falling accident after about a year of teaching beginner classes in which I injured my kidney pretty severely. I had internal bleeding and swelling. I spent about a week in the hospital waiting for things to stabilize. I was eventually discharged and left the hospital in pain. It was clear that I wouldn’t be bending at the waist any time soon. Twists were out. Inversions were out. Honestly most of my yoga practice was just not possible which is honestly understandable. I figured I would recover and pick up where I left off slowly and sensibly.
From that point on life began to take a different path. Regrettably I never regained the practice I had. Now, 40 pounds packed on, soreness and pain not related to the accident, and not feeling the best emotionally and spiritually, I am aware of my desperate need to get back on the mat. I just don’t seem to know how to start again. It is literally like being a beginner all over again…which is beautiful in some senses…and too frustrating in others. I would appreciate any advice or words of wisdom. I fear if I don’t get back to a personal practice that I am seeing a trend at least bodily that may continue for years to come. Help!