hai, i brought dis issue in spiritual forum and thought of bringing it in dis yoga forum. im having obsessive compulsion disorder ( OCD) and numerology obsession for the past 1 n half a year. it started when i begin to stay alone in a room and rarely meeting friends. i have illogical thought and disturbing thought where images of some people I dislike appear most of time especially when doing an action. i fear something bad might happen or everything follow up will be a failure if i don’t repeat these behaviors or mental acts until the image disappear or at least images of people i like appear and i feel satisfied.at the same time i have to make sure these action and any other action i do i shouldn’t repeat 4times, 13 times, 22times (numbers that added give 4) which i thought would brings bad things for me. i caught in the obsession of my thought and false belief. i know these thought is nothing and try to ignore it but i cant overcome it. i was anxious most of the time. both disturbing thought and numerology obsession cause my daily life miserable.
among the time this OCD happen is when wake up early morning, taking shower, crossing doorway,chanting mantras during prayers, starting car engines n the list go on. so many time i try to ignore but the “what if” thought keep holding me back. “what if” bad thing happen, " what if" i’m wrong and it’s go on…as checked from the website, “what if” thought is the only obstacles for dis problem that u need to overcome. But how to do that? I also get to know through website that I’m not alone. There are many people having this problems in different way. What make me sad is i was determined and planned to do so many things but all these thoughts preventing me from making progress. it kept delaying most of my plan.
im not staying alone any more, now staying at my sister’s house. but this thought still goes on. most of time i feel anxious and no interest in life and feel depressed. im still doing some of basic yoga post for d past 2 years but very seldom doing meditation. i believe there are some solution through yoga practice and meditation to overcome dis OCD. i hope someone can guide me to get me out from this mental torture. thank u