[quote=Nichole;6093]Welcome to the forum Tyler,
After reading everything that you have written, and everything that others have shared with you here, this is the point that really gets a hit for me. There have been times in my own life–I would say daily–that I need to get out of the 3rd kosha (my mind) because I’ve mistakenly believed that this is the right place to do a particular job. I say mistakenly believe because our own minds, with its strategies and vacillating thoughts, are not always the right tool for the this type of work. We need to seek guidance from our [I]higher wisdom[/I] on the 4th kosha and this occurs for most during a meditative practice (what is meditative will occur differently for people). It seems to me, an outsider, that this may be what your Guru #1 is wanting for you.
Have you tried to follow your Guru#1’s guidance of meditation since you’ve received it? Who knows, perhaps going to Guru#2 for shaktipat will be the wisdom and insight that you receive during your Guru#1’s suggested meditation. Stay open to it all and don’t believe everything you think.
Blessings for your good work.[/quote]
To Hubert: I feel I’d better not write to him just yet. Maybe in a few
weeks, if I make a little progress. I did write it out in a draft letter, just
to get it out, but it’s still addressed to me@me.com.
To Nichole: Fourth kosha? I think I experienced this last week in
mediation, but it did not happen because I willed it to happen.
I don’t know if can “will it” over this issue. I think this is an important
piece of insight though. I am paying attention to how my energetic
system reacts to my considering this option, and I’m not having
problems there, just feeling a bit unsettled mentally.
Yes, I’ve followed his instructions since I received, however, he recently
(this past spring) changed the plan, and I’ m going along with it. I have
more time to meditate this summer, so I can get into it better. Following
his instructions on this is not in question; I will do it either way. I want
to do it. I also want the benefit of having a day in person with somebody
who could transmit this to me, but not feel bound to them beyond that day.
I like this idea, to stay open to it all and not believe everything I think.
I guess I will just take it easy with this decision and try not to have an
analytic fit.
I never heard about these koshas before.
It seems I’m a lot of trouble…but I don’t