this weekend I was eating dinner with a homeless man, Joe. Joe got pistol whipped by three guys and then they proceeded to take his wallet. He told me his story and I had no words of encouragement or hope, or consolation. I just listened to him and let it sit. after a couple minutes I looked at how ungreatful I have been at many moments in life. God has Given me so much, time and time again, my only struggles were not letting go if things, never struggled much for money or a Job, I struggled only because I kept myself isolated and alone. However all that leads me to a greater personal understanding of Neil.
Anyways, I thought of Karma, cause and effect, “what goes around comes around”. Joe is humble, joe says thanks and says grace when I feed him. Joe does not take as much food as the others, he is always nice to me, unless I pry too much when asking questions, done that a couple times, LOL. Joe always dresses himself well, keeps his clothes clean. Why is he homeless? he has not shared that with me and that is ok.
This got me thinking about Karma, Joe is as nice as they come yet this “bad” thing happened to him. It changed my thoughts about karma. I believe that for the most part if you do good, good will come back to you. If you do bad, the same. Some may want to tell me of what Joe did in some past life and how he does deserve this, but past lives dont exist, the only things that exist are right now and then maybe the future. I believe the past is gone forever. However I believe that in life there is uncertainty, and it is this uncertainty that makes life worth living, makes life unsure of what will happen. Part of me is scared of accepting that, and that is ok too. A+B=C sometimes, someties it equals P or D or K I believe GOd is that which is above and beyond Karma, for God has not made me pay for all the bad I have done and I am thankful for that.
Just an experience and afterthoughts
my best to all
Brother Neil