Blessings,
I see you
The Shadow within the shadow
[INDENT]Hiding behind trees[/INDENT]
[INDENT][INDENT]Lurking behind corners[/INDENT][/INDENT]
Come out so i can see U -
what are you?
Please, don’t go —
[INDENT]stay: [/INDENT]
[INDENT][INDENT]what are you?[/INDENT][/INDENT]
[B]A figment of your imagination?[/B]
No – what r you?
I’m not afraid.
This week I have been meditating on leaks, those areas in my life that leak energy from my system. In particular I am working with the desire/hunger for money/sustenance, wasting too much time watching television, and unnecessary emission of semen: the last is mostly because i have too much energy in my system through my practices, and because i have not been able to fully spread this energy evenly throughout my body and up and down the central channel, i feel the need to release it in order to get sleep, help relieve pressure in body, and of course, because i still have not cleared away the obstructions within my body/mind itself – some of which deals with lustful drives and such.
During my yoga ritual the above string of words came out as I watched my Shadowy self hide from my awareness. I find it hard sometimes to really sit with my crap, to really look deep within to find what is going on. When i do look, when i am able to see, it often seems slippery, as if, once i get my finger on it, it slips away. Other times, i am too scared or too lazy or just do not care enough to look.
What i have found over the years is persistence, a strong desire to shore up these areas, an unbendable will to confront my issues – even if I am doing the headstand, and of course, the courage to actually do it. These are the things that have helped me over the years grow…
Blessings Be…