My mind was racing and all over the place. all the emotions one can think of were there.
I went outside to pull weeds
when I first got there I used the heavy rake to force the weeds out of the ground, after a while my labor seemed fruitless, I was frustrated, I wanted to get the weeds out and get them out fast. I reluctantly feel to my knees
On my knees I grabbed a patch of weeds, I pulled the top of the weeds off, knowing I did not get the root, frustrated, how am I going to get all these weeds, there are too many of them
reluctantly again I grabbed one weed, pulled it fast and pulled it hard, only got a little of the root
once again I grabbed a weed, pulled a little slower, I got more root, hmmmm
grabbed another weed and pulled carefully, followed the root and pulled it up, low and behold a very long root, and when I looked on this root guess what I saw, more weeds as I continued to pull weeds sometimes I got a long root, sometimes a short root, sometimes one weed lead to many, sometimes it was only itself, sometimes the largest weed on the surface had the smallest root, sometimes the smaller weed had the largest root, sometimes I dug where there were no weeds and found a root, sometimes one root would pull another root to the surface
I feel calmer and more grounded, I have pulled weeds. Not all of them but one of them, maybe tomorrow I will grab a handful and make the same mistakes, but for some reason I believe the length of time spent making those mistakes will not be as long, I will find my one weed. Maybe I made no mistakes at all, who knows. I just enjoyed pulling a weed
good luck with your weeds, for they may say so much or nothing at all
seeker