My little sister started talking to an imaginary friend when she was 3 yrs. old.
She called him Om. She talked to him everyday until she was about 5 yrs old.
She wanted to be alone all of the time and would say to me and my mom- GO AWAY NOW!!! I WANT TO TALK TO OM!!! I thought she was calling him o at first and I told her, O is not real, you come out of your room and forget about him. She told me " his name is not O. his name is OM and he is my friend. go away.
I always assumed om would be spelled OHM. (for some reason). I never knew there was anyone by this name that existed in spirituality or reality. I thought up until recently it was odd but odd was normal for her. So I looked up the word Om and what i found was a god.
so anyway, the true problem I have is that my sister became atheist a long time ago. she is 24 and has no belief in god or any sort of afterlife. I started thinking about that. How could she never have asked god for help or prayed w/o realizing she was praying. I have questioned god many times and I decided I do believe cause I have spoke to him when I am all alone and noone else can hear me. i must have done it for myself. not for show. not for any other reason than the hope that he would hear me. you dont call out to a god if you doubt that he is there.and when you get no answer that should be your truth, but to do it another time, and another and i couldnt even count all the times i have spoken to god, though i have never heard his answer. i will always have faith that hes listening, then working to find a way to show me the answer to my own questions of love, death, or faith. These are questions that only i myself can answer or learn or find meaning to. when I have called on god I usually have been in an emotional or spiritual state of disagreement with myself or questioning reasons why a god that truely cared would let me feel so much confusion or grief. Why if we are just meant to live and die then what is the point in loving greiving or learning. This belief of mine is what made me stop questioning my faith. at the same time the reason i ever thought it questionable is all the fairy tale stuff like heaven I still think the place heaven seems like a fantasy- created like santa claus or just a reason to believe that death is not permanent so as to go on living w/o those you love and you lose. Is it ok to believe in god and believe in a freeing of the soul from the body to be heaven? that is the knowledge i have found for myself and it will help me all the days of my life. And this is why i worry about my sister— so i started looking into how odd she is. she is an atheist, she has a 4.0 at the least (She is Very Smart) she is a lesbian, she believes she cannot give birth and has no desire to do so and could these be reasons for her lack of faith. That she believes she is to smart to believe in something imaginary to us all. Could it be that some religions say lesbianism is against god. that she cant have faith in something that has no faith in her, that she would have to change her lifestyle to be accepted into gods grace? Does she think I with an iq of probably 2.0 half the brilliance she has, could be an idiot for thinking i may save her from purgatory cause it does not exist to her? But then i thought about her child self, her innocence, her brilliance, her world before she walked into judgements and she was to young to know the meaning of a god to begin with- how she slept walked when she was 3-5 yrs old in the middle of the night and neighbors would bring her home to us. How she never socialized as a child and still remains antisocial. she is very unaffectionate, she has always been a loner, and then i thought of her imaginary friend named Ohm. and thats when i saw all these things about Om. This is an unknown god to me so i have to say i am confused. Could this spirit have tried to visit my sister as a child because he knew her faith would be tested later on and maybe she would remember him and realize nothing but a god would have visited her seeing she was a child unlike any other he had created, that she would challenge her god and face his consequences without fearing a wrath, did he know that she would think she was above any god and being just human is the only way to be. when there is no spirit world to believe in there is no savior that saves souls because there is no souls to be saved. we are only beings of evolution, that everyone in this world will die and never rise again and the body she was born in is the only freedom she will ever know. Om kept her in his company for 2 years. there had to be a reason behind this. Who else has had an imaginary friend that is well known as a god. how could this be a coincidence?