Hi !
I am 34 years old. I started to visit a gym a year ago. I lost a lot of fat. I became stronger. I did both strenght and cardio training. I am not very muscular but I can run 4 miles, and lift my own weight several times, do several pushups and so on. This is not the point. Due to my increased vitality and possible carmic influences, I had to pass a rather painful romantic experience. (I am married and I have a 8 days old baby girl)
The experience made me question my whole life. I managed to get answers through the spiritual path of yoga and also through the Bible and certain antrophosofic literature.
I did practice yoga for a year during college.
I have a practical question. I want to master padmasana. I want to be able to sit in this posture for the required three hours, so l can use it for meditation. I am trying to live by the Yama and Niyama. I am making good progress in that.
Now, I am probably overly zealous, and impatient. After about two weeks of daily practice , I can sit in padmasana 10-15 minutes. In the beginning even a few seconds felt ages.
The problem: lately I can’t enter the posture. My hip and knee articulations feel even more rigid than in the beginning. I do not feel the normal streching feeling, but this sensation of cold stiffness in my hips and knees.
How often should I practice ? Right now I am unable to perform padmasana. I did swithch to vajrasana but I can’t sit in it for more than a few minutes.
And I really want to master only one position for meditational purposes. But I seem to be in front of the wall, and I don’t know what I am doing wrong.
I would be much grateful for any suggestions …
may God bless you all