[QUOTE=fulmine108;13206]yep i know all that inerathlete i am not showing of as i most of the time like to be in the very back of the class and not give a dam about what other do …[/QUOTE]
And this is the very reason I mentioned Ego. As we work more deeply and we do so under the eye of not just a skilled teacher but that eye which is always watching (our own), we move away from the doing for accomplishment or performance and move toward the practice as a response to the dialogue or conversation from the heart center (and therefore the soul).
I wasn’t suggesting that you are showing off, per se, but in what you are presenting and how you are presenting it one should consider it rather than dismissing it out of hand because it is “not me”.
When you quiet the voice of the vital or pelvic force and the voice of the mental force you can hear the voice of the heart. It is only there that you can determine whether rest or continuing is in your soul’s best interest.
I would venture to say the stirring of emotion is completely appropriate. But it is not the pose that is creating the anger. The pose is merely the conduit. It brings the emotion up for you to confront and deal with. In that way your practice is quite effective - perhaps more so than the practice that only anesthetizes the practitioner.
Pragmatically it seems like a very extreme and slightly violent form of forced progress so if you were my student I’d suggest you moderate your asana practice toward a point of equanimity. You can always return to the battle field of asana that you created.
