Hi,
I don’t really have a questions so I don’t expect answers just your comments:).
This post is about my practice (I know, MY practice already include my ego but I’m not enlighted:).
Sooo…I have a one year old baby which wakes up couple of times during the night which makes me tired during the day. Anyway I keep practicing (and sometimes I am really proud of myself and it will be so easy to quit) and the practice gives me energy. (not always).
I was trying to do Ashtanga but sometimes it’s too strong practice. But: when I’m tired (from not sleeping properly) it’s easier to do it cause my mind is half asleep too and cannot protest against it.
I tried different styles but there are not as challenging or challenging in particular postures only and it made me feel like I don’t wanna do this posture I want something easier…
For example: I practiced 2 weeks Ashtanga and I felt slight changes: that i’m improving, slowly but I can feel slight changes, tiny little ones, I can keep the pose for one breath and after 2 weeks I can keep it for 2 breaths…But than it makes me sometimes tired.
When I tried for a month doing different styles and sometimes there were nice but when I came back to Ashtanga I felt there is no difference in my practice or that I have moved backward…but than there is not so much space to play in Ashtanga - you just move through postures.
So I’m somewhere in the middle of the ocean, seeking…