Hi everyone, this is my first post.
Heres the thing- I have always been completely phobic about the whole kundalini thing. Since a younger age I heard many horror stories of ``kundalini accidents``. I have dissociated a little from my root chakra a bit because I want nothing to do with down there, due to these scary stories. I am completely paranoid about losing control, going crazy etc. (you get the idea). Now fast forward: I am currently taking yoga teacher training (Sattva yoga) which I love. All is going well. I am doing good (finally in meditation) it took me an entire YEAR of hard work just to do regualr meditation for 30 minutes without having a full blown panic attack. (again related to losing control) I have had panic attacks my whole life- related to past trauma. I have worked through most of my trauma, so it seems that this fear is deep rooted and not leaving anytime soon. I think it may be even past life related. Or just subconcious. Now in the training we are just starting to learn about the bandhas, well of course I want to be able to do it, becuase I am really set on this path (I also follow Kriya yoga through Yoganandas lineage) I know that yoga is my path and this would be part of it. I asked my teacher casually (trying not to show complete terror) if practicing the bandhas would do anything strange to my kundalini, he said no and then smiled and said
promise!he is a very good teacher whom I respect and trust. But just those words do not ease my fears. He also related to everyone in the class, that the kundalini was
realand not to be played with-that there were chances of kundalini accidents (which scared me further) I understand that we are dealing with real energy here and I don
t want to mess with it. As Yogananda is my guru, I have confidence that he is guiding me in this process, I also think that while practicing this God would protect me and not let anything bad happen. But these positive thoughts only last for mere seconds. I know this subject has probably been talked about over and over again- please forgive my being naiive. I would greatly welcome reassurance and comfort. My goal in teaching yoga is to help those with panic disorder and agoraphobia (the irony is rather funny)…
Blessings
Angel
From my experience working closely with mental health issues, I would recommend avoiding anything that may aggravate your condition. You can certainly teach yoga without practicing kundalini yoga. Now, Although overcoming your fears may be a good aspiration, it isn’t always a realistic goal. I very much doubt that there is such thing as ‘Kundalini accidents’, but even so, if you are struggling to establish a kundalini practice without aggravating your condition, I would simply just avoid that path, Your health comes first.
I wouldn’t worry too much if I were you. Your Kundalini will start to rise with pretty much any spiritual practice, of course faster with Kriya Yoga. Just go at a steady pace with the practice as prescribed by your teacher and listen to your body, the body tell you itself if something is too intense for it. Mainly use your common sense to guide you. Kundalini will be gentle on you.