Hey Everyone,
So... Thursday, and yes this is too early to tell but I am feeling this out of loneliness, new found faith, and a heavily analytical brain, I started chanting Om. (lonely yes, depressed no)
I had found a teacher a while back who blew me away with her Om and have since thought that I should take up mantra. On my first night I Om'd for longer then I ever had. I decided to stop when my body forced out a yawn instead of releasing an Om. One thing I thought was really weird was that a single tear came from my left eye (no attached emotion). Now that I think about it my eyes used to get watery when I yawned as a child (darn).
The Friday night I was working a shift that I had picked up so that a work friend/acquaintance could go out for the night. I was working bar when I noticed a person dressed in white with light brown boots. Before I saw any of her skin I felt that she was beautiful.
I work in a coffee shop and when we get customers names we occasionally put their attractiveness number in (out of ten). The supervisor I was working with entered her as Elizabeth8. I had honestly never found this name so beautiful before but for some reason with her it really resonated with me. I decided that I might talk to her but I would give her at least a few minutes to settle in.
After a bit I noticed she was writing with her left hand (I am left handed). I had found my opening and almost immediately seized it and then backed off until later when I went to tiddy up the condiment bar. When I did I struck up a conversation and everything just flowed. We clicked immediately and entirely. Eventually a mini rush came in and I had to help the rest of our staff but before Elizabeth left she came to tell me it was nice to meet me, and shook my hand. It was do or die so I asked if she wanted to give me her number.
We met for lunch the following Monday and everything went just as well as when we first met. One thing I thought was kind of cool was that she sat in the shade while I sat in the sun (sun masculine, moon feminine).
We will be going out tonight so I guess we will see how everything goes. I am really excited and thankful that I met her. It really makes me wonder if she had heard me call out for her. I have been asking for (my expectation of) her for a long time.
I think this is really more of a rant then a post but I am interested in peoples view points. I understand to except her as her and not as who I want her to be. I also understand that to share this with her could cause her to recoil in terror. I do wonder if she feels similar but I guess all good things in time.
Has anyone had any similar experiences with chanting or mantra?
No proofreading has been done for this post 
