jayansande,
“But after getting initiated into Siddhayoga/Mahayoga I realize how childish were my attempts to think and act intellectually to achieve samadhi or equi poise state.”
What is far more childish is to assume that this is a sit and do nothing phenomenon. The fact is that unless one is willing to initiate tremendous effort and energy towards coming to one’s awakening, one is going to remain as you are. If you have been suffering and do nothing, that suffering is certain to continue. If one has been living out of unconsciousness, that unconsciousness is going to continue. Man’s system is very deeply programmed, just like a computer or a machine. And one’s conditioning is so rigid, and so stubborn, that it is going to resist transformation at almost any cost. If you take even one step outside of your comfort zone, now everything within you starts declaring to retreat, you are entering into the unknown. And man is far more interested in comfort and security rather than coming to the Truth.
“Everything will be GOD done.”
Not even a million gods can destroy the suffering which you yourself have created. You have created your own sufferings, and as you have created the problem, only you can dissolve the problem. And at this pace, seeing how the majority of humanity is in a deep sleep, continuously destroying both himself and the Earth, not to change would simply mean extinction. Even God will not be able to prevent it.
“Just by wish or touch of Guruji …dormat Kundalini gets awakened with such ease”
That is tremendously dangerous. If you receive something which you are not prepared for, it can only create far more damage than it can good. And even if your mind and body is prepared for such a thing, to awaken Kundalini does not mean that you have come to any penetrating insight into existence. Without wisdom, you may be deceiving yourself with all kinds of things, but you remain more or less in a deep unconsciousness.
