You are always in nirvana, but only in samsara simultaneously when you think you are. You can never be in samsara only.
It’s nothing new to you to live forever, because remember, you have been living already for eternity! That same eternity in which you will continue to live forever.
And most importantly in regard to your questions: the true experience of what you are calling the Now, is not just a middle in between past and future, it is something entirely transcendental. It is pure, all-encompassing. And in that experience there is no feeling of time, because it simply isn’t existential. Hence there is no fear for a boring eternity when you are actually experiencing your presence of awareness.
These questions, urges and future projections you are having simply do not arise when you are established in your own awareness throughout all experience. You are then utterly content and at peace. not in a boring way: that’s just how the mind imagines it to be. This peace and contentment are the most exciting experiences in themselves. thought they aren’t merely experiences.
I promise you you will not be dissapointed nor bored! Haha
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Love,
Bentinho.