[QUOTE=thomas;41571]Frequent masturbation is a sexual disorder and an addiction. Plus, you’re flushing your vitality down the toilet. I don’t know if this is a symptom or your main problem, but it’s not good, and imho, you should get some help for this.[/QUOTE]
In some books is said that sexual energy supplies 30% of daily men"s energy. It s also possible that it s my main problem or one of my main problems. I must say that somedays i masturbated literally 2 hours (clear time), extreme 3. …There were times, when i did that 2times every day…then times when i said myself that it s not health for my body and try to control myself doing it every second or third day (but average 1,5-2 hours that day).
I describe it in detail cause i must find how much does it affect me ("%").
Of course that theoretically i knew that s not good, even intuitivelly/energetically (i felt like mope/apathetic/torpid(dont know exact english word), tired, but it was good for release stress and insomnia. I also felt like more unsecured among people, more hair loss and disconnected (weak pelvis floor).
It s also sad to say, cause i love my girfriend, but in past (sometimes) i connected the start of dating with my problems…before that i controlled myself more (it was times of “walking, 5 Tibetians, and reading books of hara and tantra” (mentioned in first or second post)).
But it can be also only my guessworks, cause some of my bad times are correlated with university duties/examines.
Why i m writing this? it s only effort/quest to find what really works/worked, what is/was ilusion, what s bad, what was good but i didn t knew…effort to correlate my “practice” with inner and outer results/effects, cause in my life i ve done much effort and then disappointment…losing motivation to xx. new start.