The light and body

Last nite i watched a martial arts film, the sifu said"the real martial is in heart in spirit."
and this morning in meditation, i felt a light a huge light with red color covering the sky over my head, but the body and my face my legs still outside, so, i maybe still feel disconnected and feel shame of my whole body as a woman a human a child…
i wonder how to let the universal red line and universal wind to fill my body and u know in meditation if u connect with the universal energy, it is said the chi can heal and inside u to lift up the vibrations… and the energy system will be changed, depression will bechanged…
have u been there? how?