Wow, unbelievable costs my friend!
I can see how this has made you feel depressed and suicidal!
As for girls, there is still plenty of hope…the old adage, there is someone for everyone is true.
Regarding the money, are you allowed to pay the minimum amount on these debts?
In Britain, for example, if someone owed 30, 000 pounds say, and they were unemployed and only receiving 280.00 pounds per month, they would only be expected to pay say 5.00 pounds per month. Is this the case in America? Couldn’t you pay the bare minimum for as long as it takes or more if/when you are working for each debt you have?
Is your unemployment money paid into a Bank Account? I am assuming you get financial assistance, yes?
If you do have a Bank account then pay the minimum amounts to these companies via standing orders. (I dont know what you call them in America but in Britain this means the money is automatically taken out of your account, each month and given to the companies you owe money to.
If you do it this way you will be organised, you will not be worrying about the debts each week or month. At least your mind can then rest on these money matters a bit. Of course it doesn’t take the massive debts away but it is an effective way of dealing with them, it will free your mind a little more.
Then, participate in something healthy…Yoga for instance, find frinds who do this…or, whatever you might be interested in.
The internet and forums can be good places to form friendships and discuss your interests whatever they might be. It will be cheaper too,
Look for free things, social events that are free, relax, don’t have expectations about meeting people at these events because if you try too hard you may become disappointed, just enjoy the social gatherings, be a watcher at first, and then if you meet people/someone, let the friendship evolve naturally, dont push it, relax.
You should look at the discussion going on in this forum now titled Positive thinking…use some of the techniques being described there.
When you have a better frame of mind you will attract better things to you. The debt will be there unless you win the lottery! so it would be wise to do something like I have suggested, set up minimum payments.
Girls will be much more easily accessible when you have formed a better way of thinking…after all, no one wants to hear too much depressive talk, some yes, but not over the top…Do right from now on, question yourself in a calm manner as to what you might be doing wrong or have done wrong. Set out to correct yourself. It will reuire time to do this so dont become impatient with yourself.
I will not pray for you to die. I will pray for you to find strength to deal one by one with your problems. x
