This has been very sad for me.
Few months ago, I could meditate occasionally and within 10 minutes easily reach a jhana where I felt all was blissful, my mind was clear, concentration was effortless, etc.
Now, for the past 4 weeks, since I have decided to take up persistent meditation to change my life and develop myself as a human being, I have been unable to make any progress! at all!
When I meditate, I sit and I concentrate on my breath. In’s the outs’. As my mind wanders, I bring it back to the breath, calmly noting the thought it wandered to and leaving it be. For the past 4 weeks, every single day, several times aday, I sit and meditate in silence. I get no where. I don’t get relaxed. Sometimes I have sat for 40-60 minutes with no progess. I make SURE I do not meditate within 2-3 hours of eating because eating can slow down the mind. When I meditate after eating, I get really really really tired.
I can’t get my mind to settle down into stillness like I used to a few months ago. No matter how long I sit. I have already made it a habit of setting time aside for meditation. I probably practice accumulative an hour-2 or so aday, if not more spread out into different sessions. I wish I could go for hours on end, this is my goal.
Why can’t I make any progress? Why can I not relax myself when I meditate? I use mudras, and they don’t help me at all. I have used the ohm mudra with the thumb and index touching, and the tranquility mudra with the thumb holding down the tips of the ring and pinky finger.
None of them help.
I sit in perfect lotus pose with minimal strain on my body.
I can’t achieve relaxation. Regardless of the pose I use. When I practiced a year ago, a week of meditating 10 minutes aday became super easy and brought intense relaxation. I can’t go anywhere near that. The problem when I did that was I did it as experiementation and didn’t establish habbit or have any intent to.
I can’t settle my mind on my breath steadily. No matter the speed of my breath and duration of pauses and such, I have tried so much with no avail. Everyday I tell myself it’s only difficult because I am building up to it. But this is rediculous. I am making NO progress. Sitting and breathing slowly and steadily for 40 minutes straight should calm me down but it does nothing for my mind! I have tried labeling my thoughts and such, but this helps me little. It doesn’t help me get into access concentration of jhanas nor does it help keep my thoughts away like it used to.
I have been practicing hard and diligently for about a month and based on my practice a few months ago I should be making a TON of progress, which I am not. I can’t even get into mere relaxation!
I have tried alternative nostril breathing and I have tried the breath of fire. During alternative nostril breathing I have the same problem I have during normal meditation, unable to relax. My breathing slows but it does nothing for my mind. I stopped doing the breath of fire because it kept clogging up my nostrils and when it didn’t, it never helped me with my meditation.
Please, I need help. I will do anything. I want to make progress. I have kept track of how i meditate each day and how difficult it is, and I am litterally making NO progress.