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From: student
> Dear Mukunda,
>
> There’s some resistance now to starting the Kali Yantra study. On several
> occasions I’ve put off going to have the book image reproduced. I just
> haven’t been able to get to kinkos. The book is sitting in my car. It
> seems like another distraction, a desire conjured up by my mind because
> others I know have yantra practices.
>
> I don’t know how to be with a yantra. I’ve never been shown. It is a step
> I missed.
>
> For me there is a certain sorrow attached to it. Years ago I was at Omega
> where my guru lectured about the Sri Yantra. So I had a school room
> introduction. It was on a large colorful poster. He never discussed it
> again after that weekend. I s aw it again when I noticed a small image of it
> on the house stationery (so I cut it out and placed it in my work area).
> I’ve seen the 3-D model my teacher uses in his personal pugas and on one
> occasion I noticed one on the altar of one of his “advanced” students. You
> see the Sri yantra as well as the Para Yantra were the objects of his
> personal practices. Instead he brought back from Nepal some Buddhist
> practices to share with the sangha. But he has not shared this practice with
> us. So I am most grateful to be able to do the Devi Puja you taught me. In
> your presence I met the Sri Yantra again and this time it was alive. How
> amazing.
>
> I know the deep satisfaction I derive from chanting, for example. Though
> at times I sing inwardly, there is something very unique about the physical
> vibration of the human voice. I imagine it it the same for the eyes (moving
> arou nd the lines and colors of the yantra) as well as the other sense
> organs. The reason I ask is because we talked about the difference between
> external puja and internalized practice.
>
> I embody the levels of the Sri Yantra. The Saraswati energy is solid,
> substantive, level by level as I go up through each of my chakras. Then the
> Lakshmi energy is movement around and through each chakra. If I were to
> imagine the fire of Bhadra Kali or the air of Tara, how would I do it?
>
> I want to use the Sri Yantra as a tool but I need help to unlock it. Will
> you help me?
>
> Namaste. Denise