Hello! I have a bit of an inner-dilemma and I am wondering what everyone has to say about this.
I am very interested in Yoga and Zen and meditation and these sorts of things. However, I was raised very strict {Christian Tradition} … and my parents do not approve.
I am 32, and this really shouldn’t matter to me, I have not lived in their house in 14 years … but it does. They are my family after all - and I love them, and desire their approval.
I know that the Dalai Lama believes we should respect the Religion of our upbringing, but I am so drawn to Yoga, and really want to be an instructor of yoga. I have signed up for instructor training in February, and went to a Zen meditation class this morning, but all I can think is - my parents would spazz if they knew what I was getting into.
I also decided to check out the Unitarian church a few Sunday’s ago - and while I don’t know if it’s for me - my parents would absolutely freak if they knew this about me. I am a seeker.
I do try to be respectful, but I can’t seem to embrace Christianity the way I am “supposed” to. Half of the things that I’ve been told are bad and wrong, I just can’t see why they are bad and wrong - Yoga being one of them!
I am wondering if anyone else has had to deal with this - where something you desire and are so curious and interested in … is basically “wrong” in the eyes of the people you love the most.
I don’t know how to Respect my family … AND Respect myself in this situation … I don’t believe this is something I’m pursuing out of Rebellion, but out of a genuine desire and curiosity and interest. I was raised in a very “extreme” environment. I love my family, but they are very prone to Religion-bashing {other than their own} and I, by contrast, have a strong value of Religious Tolerance.
I’m just very confused and maybe broken-hearted that it is without their blessing that I pursue this … and also, maybe a bit scared that I will burn in the embers of Hell for doing this {but I don’t really think I believe in the Biblical Hell as it’s been presented to me}.
Alright - I’m done rambling. Just being very honest at this point, and wondering if there is any wisdom out there for me.
~Madeline