I believe there are two elements to your inquiry SCMT.
The first is the yet-to-be-identified emotion (sadness, anger, fear, joy) and the second is the result which perhaps ebbs from that emotion.
Since I am not in your body and since each person is unique I could not possibly comment on the emotional aspect, especially in light of the superficial reference to pranyama. Not knowing whether you are doing 30 minutes of radiant breath, or two minutes of ujjayi prohibits me from assessing that portion of the question with any mindfulness at all - other than this reply here.
What you describe relative to your life’s direction sound like an identification with Svadharma - your life’s purpose or mission. This is the reason for yoga, to find why your soul has chosen that body and live in that way. You are quite fortunate as some who’ve been doing that looking have yet to hear their deeper reply at all.
If you have wiped away enough ego to hear the call of the soul (which is vocalized in and from the heart center) then you have a great opportunity ahead of you.