Hello Prasad,
Thank you for your open answers.
Well if you have been trying it for 15 years, than that must indicate that that road is a long one of harship and without much true freedom along the way. How can it be the ultimate yoga if it leaves you in darkness, confusion and duffering for thousands of lives? Sure you can stay on this path because you belief in the things you belief in, but along that path, you can also take some regular moments of letting go of all your concepts and beliefs about enlightenment and truth. Just for a moment perhaps. In these moments of letting them go, you experience that you are free from these beliefs even as they arise in your mind. They don’t really affect you, only if you belief in them.
You say it’s a process of many many lives to become perfect, changing every thought as you go. But is freedom really dependent on what kind of thoughts you are having? Is freedom depending on what you belief and do as a personal identity? Or is True Freedom always free?
About the story of the buddha, as I know it, it is not that he contemplated under the bodhi tree and achieved a belief system, it is rather the opposite: He was contemplating intensely for many years, but when he sat down under the bodhi tree, during that time, he just did not care anymore about his concemplations, he was comletely relaxing all his belief systems. So instead of contemplating and arriving at a belief system, he just rested in his awareness and as he witnessed all his belief systems that he used all his life come and go on their own account, he realized he was the free awareness that was always beyond these belief systems. As he watched all his mental desires and fears and belief systems (the demons of Mara, symbolically) come and go on their own, he realized they are nothing substantial or meaningful. They simply come… [I]and they go! :)[/I] So how could they hold any meaning or truth if they dissolve back into the nothingness of awareness? he saw that whatever thought or emotion or state of mind, from that moment on, would pop up, he was always free as awareness.
So he was [I]free[/I] from any belief system. And it was through being completely uninterested, uncachable so to say, in the process of mental contemplation, that he realized his freedom.
For your last part. Coming to a state of No-Mind is what the ultimate aim of ultimate Yoga is.
I have been to no-mind many times, it is not freedom I can asure you. I believed that too. But it is a copy of freedom, it looks like freedom. But True Freedom my friend, is that which is not dependent on anything, including your state of mind. True Freedom is not having no thoughts, True freedom is being free in either thought or no-thought. Would you agree?
You can see this for yourself: whenever you arrive at that state of No-Mind, realize the presence, the clarity, the alertness, the awraeness that is there when you are undisturbed by thoughts. Now as thoughts are coming back to you, realize how that alertness is still there. It is the space in which all thoughts come and go. Trying to maintain a state of no-mind is practically impossible if you wish to live life fully as a human also, and it will create a dependent kind of freedom, in which you feel only free if you have no thoughts.
Freedom is that awareness which is aware of the state of no-mind. And once again: that is the same awareness which is aware of a state of mind full of thoughts. It is exactly the same fredom/truth/god Whether you are a thief or a saint, awareness is aware of both, and thus it is untouched and at all times free from any sort of action or identity.
Hope this was not too personal? It may have seemed off-topic, even though it really wasn’t in my opinion. Nevertheless, I feel I will stop posting in this topic. If you have any further personal debate Prasad, you may PM me, this way we won’t bother other people and other topics.
Love,
B.