After a couple years of doing hatha yoga classes, I started going to Iyengar yoga classes three months ago.
One of the things I liked about the Iyengar classes (in the beginning) was that there was a lot of adjustments made and it was refreshing in comparison to the limited adjustments in previous classes. I also felt like I was working deeper.
The last month or so, I’ve started walking out of these Iyengar classes - quite frankly - feeling like a worthless piece of crap…that no matter what I do, it’s not right and certainly not good enough. There also seems to be a lot of talk about ‘breathing through my side ribs’ and ‘not breaking my energy column’ that I simply find hard to follow.
The instructor is constantly adjusting us. She also gives no positive feedback or encouragement (to me or anyone else). The class size is very small - the most we have is 4 people - and I’d say at least every 2nd to 3rd week, I have a private lesson because I’m the only student.
Saying that - she is a very gentle soul and I believe a good person.
My question: Is this typical of Iyengar classes? I fully accept that the ‘worthlessness’ thoughts are coming from my own head - the instructor is at most probably bringing them out into the open for me to look at (and I’m not so sure it isn’t the increased meditation/introspection I’ve been doing that is bringing these thoughts up - it just seems to happen more often after class).
Since I don’t have other Iyengar options where I live, I’m just curious whether what I am experiencing is typical Iyengar style or not.
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Thanks for your feedback!