[quote=tubeseeker;7439]amik, when i find myself most angry at others it is usually when I am in a mental state where I am not content within myself. being angry on the past? we are in the now. Do the right thing for you in the now and let the past and future be as they were and will be. maybe there karma was as such that they were destined to be destroyed, I dont know these answers but to be angry about things of the such is taking a position of you judging what is right and wrong without knowing all the factors involved, is your knowledge that high to make these judgement.
I say this with a loving heart
I have things to let go of too and what I said is just my thoughts on what I read, nothing more, nothing less
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Well, it might be that I am in my 20-something years, but I really am not content to say that it’s the earth’s fate to just pass on. Maybe humanity has written its own fate. I don’t know. I know a lot of people who saw no value in the human race continuing, and I as an absolute relativist for a while absolutely did not care. (At the same time what I did care about was getting laid and being “awesome” so go figure.) All of the factors I know have been my own. I’ve seen myself not care about the fate of the earth, I’ve seen myself self-destructive, I’ve seen myself turned on to Enlightenment with a capital E which is both true and not true, subsequently I took to looking at values systems and realized there is power in some of them (such as the respect of hunter gatherers I mentioned in my last post) and I understand why it is I care, because darn it there is hope in them as well!
I grew up without a value system, well a “real” value system. My household was the model postmodern household. I learned how to survive, not how to live well. Both of my parents maintained the external facade of living well, and all the while, well, I’ll just say my dad is a professor and what I know about him would get him fired at the least. And my mom stayed married to him. I love my parents, but I’d be absolutely lying if I said, knowing what I know now, I am not absolutely pissed off at them for lying to me about the nature of their relationship. I know that they did not know much about a good values system because they were both raised in faulty ones.
Nothing is reality. Everything is a part of reality. Having said that a value system is just a part of reality that makes it much better and healthier for living intelligent organisms like me to get along. My dive into the rabbit hole began when I realized that parts of my reality were dominating the picture, i.e. I lived in a hyperreality. These parts were academia, seeking father figures, and attracting suitable boyfriends (and the weird egos I adopted trying to attract them, the peacock tails if you will), and I had overlooked the very important fundamentals of life, the real nature of our world and how to live in it. I’d like to digress here and say that -anyone- who separates themselves from their circumstances growing up for -any reason- is running away, and is an egomaniac. We got the cards we are dealt. We are a system within a system within a system and a part of the great unified consciousness, which is a whole other term paper in itself. (I’m not crazier than anyone else, I’ve just come to some pretty crazy conclusions, crazy by the majority’s standard… anyway…) I didn’t like being raised in that system, and I am not “over it”. Anger is a source of knowledge, particularly firsthand knowledge that a more concrete value system based on objective and subjective reality is better, whether or not it’s true with a capital T or any of that jazz. Frankly with what I know now I’d be worried about myself if I wasn’t angry. That and trying to bury the anger will just make me lay on the couch and go to sleep, and I’ll take being pissed off over sleep any day of the week, unless I need to go to work the next day, in that case the sleep would serve a purpose.
Anyway, my judgement comes from firsthand experience of learning of the possiblity of a better values system. Richard Rose’s (google if you’re in the dark on him… good writer… as with everything grain of salt, but he knew some stuff) “ways and means” committee, the way of interacting with the rest of the world. It takes a lot of work to straighten it out, I think if anything this might be closest to any one person’s life work. You say what you say with a loving heart to me, I appreciate that, and I thank you for it, and I thank you for valuing speaking with a loving heart.
You also talked about karmic forces. All karma is: Cause and Effect. If the effect is anger, then that is what it is. Again it is just the cards you are dealt and what you do with them. The results of your actions are just more cards. “When we don’t get what we want we get experience.” Get enough experience and hopefully one’s head gets straightened out… I am just to the point where I feel like my head got straightened out and I am still dealing with some bad “deals” (to continue the card metaphor).
I hope you weren’t hoping for the short explanation because there was the long one!