By the way Yogimoni I was just reading some of the material on your web site. I first want to congratulate you on the job you’ve done on your web site. It appears your web site is only a few weeks old, but already it seems to have a lot of material and gives the semblance of a professional, organized and long standing web site. This is no doubt a credit to your web developing and marketing background and the momentum and speed with which you are doing this clearly shows you are a driven and tenacious person. I wish you the greatest success in what you are trying to achieve and in attracting regular viewers to your web site.
I noted in two of of your stream of consciousness essays(30 min with Moni) you betraying your obvious intention in advertising your web site and your reasons for doing so:
I wait
To succeed
I wait for my website to attract followers
…. for my words to be read
……for my financial reward…
MY financial reward …. Not his
My earnings as a strong and capable woman, not as a dependent and vulnerable wife
My dream is to finally build out hathayoga.net so that it becomes a place of transformation for all who become a part of our online community. I wish to share not only my written and spoken words, but the words of ancient teachers, present day teachers and healers. It is not my goal to shine or be the ‘star’ of hathayoga.net, but to be a facilitator who helps all who have something valuable to offer the opportunity to be heard.
Of course, over time, I need to make some money with the site. I must be fairly compensated for both practical and emotional reasons. But, my hope is to achieve my financial goals within the framework of a spiritually pure environment.
I am not judging you harshly for wanting to create a mega Yoga web site. In fact it seems like you desire to create another website like the Yogaforums David has created. The difference I noted was however there is a lot of your ego entangled in your web site. Your web site seems to be more about you than others, as wherever I look your name is everywhere, even in your categories, “30 min with Moni” David has had the Yogaforums up for years now and he’s never really felt the need to have a “30 min with David” section.
From what I can glean from your writings is that you want to prove to yourself that you can do it, that you are a woman empowered who can earn for herself, not just a vulnerable and dependent housewife playing second fiddle to men. You are capitalizing on all your skills in Yoga, marketing and web developing to market, sorry to say from my perception yourself, than your web site. Again, I do not blame you. This is how people become successful in the world of today: you must be enterprising, you must work hard and you must be confident and put yourself out there. It seems that is exactly what you are doing.
Maybe I suffer from a confidence problem but I have never really thought so highly of myself that I should write articles, or publish books, or start my own cult or new Yoga style(!) even though several of my well-wishers, friends and even strangers have suggested it to me. I have had opportunity knocking on my door - I have been asked to give talks at my university, hold lectures and have even given two talks at my local community. At my local public speaking club, a longstanding and respected member said to me, “You could make a lot of money as a speaker” But I have never really taken any of this praise seriously - I just do not feel ready for it. I feel like I am still a Caterpillar incubating in the cocoon, and until I am not a butterfly, I won’t spread my wings and fly away. The most that I ever do is just share my knowledge free on the Yogaforums(and with friends) in normal threads(and I still get called arrogant and haughty by some lol) but I have no motivations for self-promotion or self-gain.
What I don’t understand is why do others (like Amir, Futurehumandestiny, Suhas and yourself) feel the need to promote themselves, publish articles and books, make videos and hold seminars? Are you really doing it for others, or is it really for yourself, your ego?