(ALREADY STATED BY EARLIER POST) I believe Buddhas last obstacle was thoughts of sex but he didn’t give up. Dont be too hard on yourself…it will take time to remove sexual urges that will arise. Meditation may bring them closer to the surface, there will be many layers to remove…after meditation, not during necessarily…although it can happen during meditation this is usually because one has had the thought as meditation begins, so avoid meditating with any thought of sex preceding the meditation.
When you fail, (EVEN FOR DAYS), do not allow this to bother you, just keep trying and eventually all the layers will be dealt with and cease to be a problem. It has taken me many years to be completely free of any sexual desires. I never became disheartened when I slipped up. It is normal to slip up…now nothing and no person can stir me to any sexual cravings or stimulations, rest assure it is achievable and you will achieve it in time. You sound as if you are on a mission in life, you sound as if you have the abilities to do it because of your mission…I wish you every success on your very noble mission Futureking, I will include you in my thoughts to wish you strength in this matter
Kind Regards Kareng